I can't lose u but I'm not afraid to lose u

07 July 2011

9.15 p.m

Streamyx wat hal. memalam x de line. pagi2 bute je ade. 

merapu dalam note pad.

Arini Yam cuti. Arrange mak punye EPF. 

Check balance hutang uma, kete ijan, moto ijan ngan tabung aji.

Nnt uma ni letak atas nama ijan.

Nanti Yam nak beli uma. InsyaAllah klu ade rejeki.

Sian tgk mak naik uma ni bertingkat2..

kaki pon dah sakit. bukan yam x nak belikan.

tp yam xde duit muka.duit nak byr bulan2 ade.

Yam baru 3 tahun je keje. duit EPF yam pon x byk agi.

sedeyh ati tgk mak. Yam x mampu.

At the same time, Yam BBM ngan Mr Right no Wrong.

Maya panggil dier 'dak kerek prefect wannabe" hu3..

Yam suke dier. tp Yam takut.

Yam x kenal dier. Not even meet him.Cakap dlm tepon only once. camne yam nak caye dier.

Noi plak cakap. Maybe dier same cam org len.

Sweet talker. So yam takut nak percaya dier. 

He is damn perfect. He is kind, caring, rich (yam x tgk ni k), good looking,

kuat agama, n i just luv him just the way he are.

Sooner, by September, he'll be leaving M'sia heading to Saudi Arabia.

for 5 years psl keje. lame kan. so I'm asking him, when he gonna get married.

Next year kate nye. So he'll be bring his wife by then.

So, confirm2 bukan yam sbb Yam x leh tinggal kan mak ngan abg yam kat sini.

Yam nak beli kan mak uma. Klu yam pergi sana (ku bilang kalau, psg angan2 jer), sape nak bayar duit uma, duit kete yam?

Suddenly we talking about jodoh.

dunno y, ati yam sedih bile dier cakap,

"I do luv u but I'm afraid, I'm afraid dat I only trust myself n u r not the one"

" I can't lose u but I'm not afraid to lose u"

Betulla..kite x taw sape jodoh kite. 

Yam ngan dier pon bukan ade pape.

Then, Yam advise dier buat solat istikharah je. 

Macam biase, dier kan Mr Right No wrong.

x accept suggestion Yam. muahaha. 

ok la bro. nak wat camno kan. Yum kasi suggestion jer.

Up to u.