What to do next?

11.04p.m
watching "bawaku ke syurga" at TV3
baru lepas bace blog Serina.
she talked about her late mother.
I cant afford to read her post. sedeyh sgt. so yam byk skip n skip.
terpaksa, coz i cant imagine if i'm going to face same situation.
Semoga roh arwah berada di kalangan org2 yg beriman di sisi Allah s.w.t

what is ur latest news?

erm.

ari2 busy. bulan lepas performance sgt teruk.

this month, 2 minggu berturut2,

tiap2 hari jumpe customer.

hmm.

dapat customer besar2. treatment pon lain la.

penat woo.turun padang jumpe customer. 

siang jumpe customer.

malam settle keje office.

what a life.

skang ni life, sume dlm kepala otak.

macam machine.

dok pk what to do next.

what to do next.

weekend baru ade kebajikan tuk mak.

mmg full time yam kasi kat mak.

sbb weekdays, yam mmg xde masa tuk mak.

dari pukul 8.30 pagi smpi 12mlm.

keje n keje.

org akan kata. 

yam tu keje lembap.baru lagi. sbb tu camtu.

ntah la. i dunno. i give my full effort to my work.

dr pagi smpi malam.

tp masih ade yg tertinggal.

sebab?

bukan ko dah bagi full effort?

rasa2?

bile yam cakap, yam banyak sgt keje. 

xmampu nak buat.

bile nak jumpe customer agi. bile nak follow up ngan customer.

bile nak ensure sume invoice ok. bile nak settle invoice yg bermasalah.

bile nak blaja pasal process baru customer lagi.

bile nak buat keje ngan CSO, CRR.

stress bile org tanye update, tp x de status.

4 account under 4 different people delivered to one person.

what the hell are u expect me to do?

yes, i'm handling for pure collection. but I dont think so.

yam percaya yam buat lebih dr pure collection.

I need to attend meeting even its on dispute. 

coz i need to know the whole story.

same je la.

my first week will be on reporting, maxis thing, invoicing.

klu dtg part report. Full 2 hari dr pagi ke malam. 

report je.

seyes. only reports. most of the customer are mine.

pastu ade byk cerita.

Tapi dis month, 2 week in a row. 

I'm at customer place. no call or follow up with customer.

camne nak kasi update kat management?

Look, I'm not COMPLAINING what I am facing or doing.

This is what in my HEAD.

What I've been doing LATELY.

keep on thinking.

WHAT I NEED TO DO NEXT.

to ensure my work done well.

I've no SOCIAL life anymore.

but u still FACEBOOKING kan?

yes, I am. 

sbb I ade blackberry. I can view anytime.

kesan lain?

dah lame x berBLOGGING.

see..sebulan terbiar bersawang blog ni.

kesan paling ketara.

yam x pernah online YM.

dulu slalu gak chat ngan BFF yam - MAYA.

bercerita perihal masing2. berkongsi masalah.

tetibe satu hari maya mention kat FB chat

"Rindu"

only one word dah buat ati yam tersentuh.

satu perasaan sedeyh yg amat sgt menyelinap ruang ati yam.

mata yam dah bergenang.

sungguh, yam dah abaikan maya sgt lama.

sungguh yam pun rindu kan maya.

SANGAT RINDU.

Klu gini la gaya idup ko yam,..

erm..camne nak dapat BF????

org pon takut tgk ko. 

dok keje 24 jam.

mesti kehidupan dorg terabai klu Cik Yam jadi GF dorg.

Agama?

hmm. tu lagi satu.

solat memang cukup 5 waktu.

tp x taw la camne.

mintak2 di terima la ibadah cik Yam ni.

keje yam pon ibadah yam.

So, yam keje kuat sebab yam beribadah kerana Allah

tuk terus kan hidup. 

p/s; my team lead baru je re-shuffle account. all customer yg prompt payment kasi kat org len. reduce sikit account yam. but still, I dunno dat I can make it or not. Sebab sume yg bermasalah still ngan Yam. 
What to do. Life must go on. I'll trying my best to do the best since this is Amanah. I need to fulfill it. Hope kerja Cik Yam diberkati Allah s.w.t.